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September 08, 2010 Wednesday,

Today, I had a lot of things learned.. A lesson that I won't forget.

       Working out in a school with ur other classmates wasn't so much difficult for me, for it was a normal day just for everyone.. But this day, for me was different.. Even though, I accepted my destiny to have many friendly classmates, I also accepted and knew that it wasn't so hard to be with people whom I hate most when I was on the past days.. At first, it was typical, but if you think of it, it's nonsense if you find it so difficult. Then, I knew to overcome that.. I glanced before him and I saw how to forgive and forget those people who have sinned you that hurted you most.. It was all now a memory.., A memory in the Past that I never want to open up again.. Too bad...!! :\
       MAny people was obsessed of how to leave their problem and go to their new life..  And once, there is God, who wipe our tears away, and guides us in ou everyday lives.. I know that He was forever with me... 
        It was so hard to understand how people make themselves very busy planning how to solve their own problem.. Maybe they just can't be independent for themselves..
          Parents. The one who supports us in our everyday lives.. How can u live w/ happy parents if yu urself dont know how to make them happy.. Sometimes, I just don't understand how I can say that they were the best mom & dad of the world, but it was different... I really want to show them how I care for them because this is me and I love them very much.. I don't want to quit proving them that I really trying hard to be a good girl for them.. 
        Think if you were a girl who had many dreams out there, trying to reach out the skies and spread ur wings... How can I be happy if everyday, I can't saw my friend avoiding me?? It was so hard.. Among my favorites, Avoiding and unnoticed me was my dislikes.. Sometimes I had to wept for that.. I know that this was all for me but why is it that for such a thing he won't notice me?? If i'm pleasing for something, he was just there like ur wind for him, UNSEEN????!!! What a mess! Then, even if you don't intend to do, he will just shout at you while you are just a meters away from him??!! What kind of person is that? I'm a PERSON, not a WIND.. Please wag nyo nman akong gnyanin ng sobra-sobra..!! I can't live with that! Hey look, first of all, I'm not plastic to my special friends, I treat them as the way they treat me right,... But,... Haiixst.... Ayoko nah... Kh8 anunq plt ko, he just don't want me to stick around.. It's okay... ) :\ If that makes him happy, okay, Ill forgive him to what he want...   I know nman na, ur just deceiving me from the start plng ee.. Then pa2ashin u lng me... why??!!! What have I done wrong to you??!! Is this forever dedzmah alng???... I Can't... but if you do really want, I don't want to be a fool again.. Let' just be straight to the point....   
 


I wanna change everything that matters to us and have a new start...

If that's what you really want.... :'(